Lying in bed listening to the rain, blankets all crunched up and a PlayStation remote half poking me in the head. But what i cant get off my mind was this dear old conversation I heard today between an old frail man and a young girl.
The old man sitting comfertably on a stool in Front of a cannabis shop. Staring at the girl waiting outside for her parents. The old man calls out, “girl can I help you” the girl reply “Im lost” so the man edges forward and replies “your parents will be out soon don’t worry dear child.” She replied impatiently in a harsh bratty tone “I don’t know what I want! Its not fair” the old man gave a chuckle and asked her to come over, what he said next I nearly fell off my chair.
“Child, you don’t know what you want and there can be only two reasons. The first, you already have what you want and simply havnt noticed it yet. And the second. You just don’t know yourself well enough. Look at me I have a wife of 70 years and im trying to pick up grannies here out side the dagga shop. I I don’t know what I want either. Or after 70 years I have no clue of who I really am, which of quite recent I can understand, as im completely lost!”
So im thinking of moving to Thailand again. Starting off fresh again for the hundredth time. I guess we learn and grow but for some reason I feel this need to move again will be judged negatively by others as if I cant commit to one thing for a long period of time. I don’t understand it. Is it because my path leads else where and in my head I know this and constantly keep wanting to move. Or is it due to not being able to commit. My cant I commit. Is there something wrong with my personality or is it that I’ve never been truly comfortable with what i do.
Now this may sound silly but im so excited to move and be free, make my own choices again! Its something I cant contain and I am struggling to wait.
Now there is a catch as always. If I move I may not be successfully, ill try damn hard but what if? Or i can be successful. But if I stay with the Job I have whos to say it wont get better, security with this job. I know my pay check. I know it might increase over time. Starting your own project you have no idea the out comes. What if I fail. And come home and start at square one all over again. What if my lover leaves me because of this. What if her family dislikes me.
Truth is I am a creative soul and there is no way around it. I love creating. Whether its art, or website, or small businesses! I love coming up with ideas! Most of them so far have failed and I guess that’s okay in a sense. I just need that one chance of success. And im fucking frightened I don’t find it.
Its raining here, porring to be honest, im sitting at a wooden table in a dirty resturant. A place people come before visiting the whores across the road. Water droplets hitting me and all the whilst pondering on the lives of the women across the road. Didn’t you say it was a sin? You didnt say much though. Im listening to a man by the name of Alan watts, his take on life and profound way of understanding this pathetic game we call life although its not truly a game at all from the sounds of things. I do not ponder your existence, i ponder about the understanding towards the decisions you have made. Or were there decisions made at all? Free will is what you called it but its like driving down a road with no breaks, the opposite lane is full with bustling cars and there is an on coming car in my lane. The breaks don’t work. And so here comes my understanding of free will. It comes to no surprise that some choices are harder then others. Consequences begin to arise. But as an entity with all your power and understanding, do I swerve off the road and fall down the cliff killing myself, pull over onto incoming traffic and kill six people, or simply smash into the car in Front of me killing everyone including the six month old baby with one survivor, the drunken father whos been laid off work and lost everything, his wife, assets and well his six month old child depending on the choice I make.
Now you see, I don’t remember signing a contract with terms and conditions and im not upset with you at all. I just struggle to understand how priests can live luxurious lives traveling the world in private Jets while Ashi Mobesta in Bokfontein township, aged 7, has starved more night in her awaken life then nights there have been a full moon.
Some say we deserve it, other say its just the luck of the draw. But is it really? There is a drought for 12 months, enslaving financially hundreds of farmers, hundreds of thousands of family. And im sat here with ear phones in playing no music just trying to evade communication. Must some how understand your plan.
Last week one of the workers and old man aged 51, spends his days breaking rocks with 20 pound sledge hammer, for 12 hours a day. His family lives 1000km away. Coming home eat night to a tin house and eating meals consisting of maize and water. A man who has done no wrong and lived a life of hard ship. This man lost his 18 year old son last week, with not even enough money to bury his own child. He sat next to me and cried, screamed. With a tone angels have never heard. Like he was 6ft underground stuck in well.
At this moment I realized how cheap and pathetic life is. And I asked you why you allowed this to happen. With no reply.
But what convinces us we are worthy of your reply, what convinces us you are not kali the Hindu god of pain. For without the dark of night you cannot see the stars. Without times of destruction we cannot see the collateral beauty. What if you are the reason we see the beauty. For only after suffering do we appreciate luxury. How do you scale this, measure these opposites. Who sits and reassures you there is balance kept on earth.
When we reached the moon and returned a young journalist asked the astronaut. Have you seen heaven beyond our earth? The astronaut replied yes. Did you see god and if so what did he look like? The astronaut replied, yes. She is black.
You see we all have this perception of a father like figure when it comes to you. But does your image matter. What if I witnessed you wearing a black shirt scruffy old woman dark in colour with a sword in one hand and a human corps in the other. Would I tremble, would I think less of you. What if, you created this physical existence but we humans are a mere creation of those you created before us.
What if we humans with knowledge and many years of understanding could become God. To say if in 200 years we created a medical means towards immortality. Teleport and true Telepathy. The ability to walk through more then just our physical plain but spiritual ones to. With this being said would there be pyramid power dividing systems between the knowledgeable Gods created and yourself at the top. Would there be a ranking? Is there a ranking? Have Gods been created before in our universe under your rule.
If not, why is there only one true God and not many. If not,
You see as humans we are plagued with enormous stress and pressure. And as humans we forget things. Mess stuff up. But does this really mean we are not good enough. In actual fact you have hired a human not a robot, you stupid creature. Come back in 10 years and we might just have what you are looking for.
So for now deal with the constant fact that we are indeed humans. Some better then other, I guess. I have no idea how we measure this. But the good part is im giving you a slight understanding into my mind.
And a wonderful mind at that. So how did I feel spending my last day before work begins in a cold basement parking lot genuinely enjoying my day? Well I came to realize that the more I write the more people will know. Considering these articles may live on the internet for as long as mind kind can survive this dirty rat race.
Truth is im lying to you, im actually writing cause I have nothing to do. And work starts tomorrow after my disciplinary hearing. And I think I may have found something I like. Blogging.
It’s not to tedious nor does it use energy or money. I have my whole setup right here on this little device. Pretty much total sci-fi talk if it was 20 years ago. Non the less we can all pretend this new age of technology doesn’t frighten you all. Amateurs.
So as this story goes on it has started to get darker here and my girlfriend has become more tired with every olly she performs. I do give it to her the perseverance in her, is a trait I’d like to steal. She is growing increasingly upset as im not watching her skate. So as for this post im done. Hope you enjoyed
If I could tell the world anything, anything at all. what would it be? but further more, what would my intentions be.
To share knowledge?
To make money?
To be heard?
Exert some kind ego towards the outside world?
Would I mock people or insult someone?
Criticize?
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You are reading this article in the hopes to gain some special knowledge to grow from poor to a multi millionaire blog creator. Some blogs sit and give you factual numbers with flow diagrams and charts. Other Creatures offer a different approach based on Perseverance, or Magnetizing a fellowship. Most of us though keep searching, most of us are looking for something called, INSTANT GRATIFICATION. Day after day we spend our time hunched over article’s or vlogs promising us we can become like them. It is a wonderful society isn’t it when we obsess over Fake gratification instead of human interaction. and it is something we have gotten far to good at.
I spent the good parts of 4 days, Trying to come up with a full proof concept that works, all the whilst dreading going back to work and having to face the disciplinary hearing I got just two days ago. Hanging over my 2010 Dell laptop contemplating quitting smoking while frantically looking for a lighter. Yes, this is how I have spent my last 4 days, in a old age home apartment block, you know the that look? with wood styled furniture and painting styled tiles. yes. This is where it all began, my quest to find enlightenment. or at least an answer to my question.
Along the way I noticed a few problems.
I do not know any of these authors, writers, bloggers. How am I to trust them, or for a second believe this 1 paragraph of script is the answer to my dreams/problems. Over the 15,000,000 other articles iv missed due to not having enough life on earth. And this brings us to our first point.
YOU WILL NOT FIND A MAGIC PASSAGE THAT WILL IMPROVE YOUR LIFE
You could though Im sure of it. Kind of making a statement like, we are the only life in the universe. When we know far to little information on a stupid topic and try to understand it.
further more let me explain my topic. The fact that you are reading this means you are taking a great step towards success. Obviously, you are researching. Finding hacks to the trade, tips and tricks anything you can to get a good footing in this blogging industry. Don’t Stop.
But please do keep in mind, only 1 thing really works.
QUALITY
The quality of your blog. Is the very post you are busy with, really going to change someones life, inspire them, change a nation. Probably not unfortunately. But that is because you have not soul searched, deep inside yourself. Ever had that moment with your partner where you can finally be comfortable, get naked or pull funny faces when you climax. This is where you need to be with your writing. Feel no judgement, Type in a quiet room with no one but yourself. Let your fears and dreams come out, followed close behind with your darkest fantasies and kinks. Let it all out my old friend, let it out.
Fear not the ridicule of others, or the beliefs in your families eyes. This is a moment to be undevidedly yourself. (See I just made that word up). Because this is my space and I am the boss here, And this is the attitude you need, towards writing.
Many writers before us 21st century bloggers, wrote from their heart, William Shakespear. He wrote plays of Jealousy and death. Using a technique of story telling never seen before. Eminem, the best Hip Hop Rap artist of all time. He wrote about his life and the struggles he was facing, showing no ego, his heart worn on his sleeve. And you know what? People were able to relate, and recognize what he was going through.
Maybe you don’t have it in you right now to let go and be free, if so. You need to learn fast kid. Cause without it you’ll be a mediocre blog writer with no one but there close family and retirement home friends to read along, to your boring mundane gossip on racism and plants, or pills out there curing arthritis.
Life is short and sharing knowledge is one of the greatest gifts us creatures have. So don’t stop, doing what you are doing, whether you go viral or not. Information on the internet cannot die and soon 100 years from now kids might be reading your article as a class assignment to pick up the mistakes, and why it was never a successful article. Or you could find happiness in the fact that instant gratification will not work in this industry without a godlike mind. Or if your are looking for a more positive approach there is always the chance you know something the world has been searching for.
Either way I think your chances are 50/50, and that is a damn fine place to start. considering baby sea turtles have a 1 in 1000 chance of ever living long enough to reproduce. So take it from me, Carry on. You have more then enough of a chance to become anything you want, why not a blogger.
In a society as vast as ours we have all come to the realization money is evil. Well to be more subjective I believe money is the root of all evil. This article will explain to you how easy it is to survive without money, but this life style is not for all to endure.
When I was 17 i found it very amusing how our whole lives aare based around money. The most hours spent are at school or work, doing something you probably do not enjoy. Now why is it we don’t just leave, retire, or run away to a life of less pressure and more pleasure. Simple. We believe we can’t. But can we?
For a year I researched how to live off the land, carry only what will fit in a bag, with ways and means of finding food and places to sleep. I believed the life of a so called hobo was one I quite enjoyed and found interesting. now you may think I was a bit strange but I’m not the only one with these thoughts and dreams of a relaxed life, living day by day, with no stresses.
at the age of 18 I packed my bag and began my walk from Johannesburg to Cape town, strolling through the garden route. This was a massive 2000 km walk. And something I needed to do to prove a South African or anyone could live without money.
Family and friends told me I as crazy, I would be raped and murdered on my trip. I pressed on.
step 1
Pack light, only bring what you need. 3 pairs of pants, 5 shirts, 5 underware, 5 socks.
Bunsen burner to cook on. A light small pot
sewing kit.
Jacket and thick raincoat.
Matches
A map on paper as your phones battery will die.
Big bottle of water.
The rest you can decide, be creative.
AND a Tent! lightweight as you will be carrying it.
step 2
Take one step at a time. the first week will be physically painful. All the walking, sleeping in a tent and so on. The second week will be Mentally painful missing the family. The loneliness will disappear with thoughts and voices running through your head. you will meditate unknowingly. discuss topics with yourself to such an extent you begin to understand what you have never understood before. You will be at peace. Life will be quiet. The road will be long but remember, 1 step in front of another.
step 3
At this point you will begin to believe it is a bad idea and what you are doing is ridiculous. Shut up and believe. this is a moment of great understanding and realization. You will grow faster mentally then ever before.
step 4
By now you have left your own society and begun to walk a road of another journey. People sense this and will look at you strangely. Your communication with people from your old society of money will fade away. you will feel a sense of fear towards big cities and even people in general. This means it is working. You are adapting.
when I was on my walk I went days and days without muttering a word to anyone.
step 5
Realization. At this point of your journey you become enlightened. your ego has disappeared due to having to ask for help, ask for free food, or a good warm shower. You may not be comfy with this but it is important to rid the ego. You will lose judgement on peoples classes as money and wealth means nothing.
At this point if you choose to continue or return to society the choice is yours. But know you have enlightened yourself in ways you will only discover later on in life.
I walked for 3 months. And went from a dirty druggy teenager to a hard working man who does everything in his power to better his own life and the lives of family and friends around him. The day I integrated back into society I was a changed man for the better.
It is possible to live without money, the journey will teach you things that would take years for you to understand. Give it a try, Email me Jesseglad1@gmail.com if you have any other questions.
This post is intended for viewers over the age of 18.
Sex and the city. Isn’t this one of the excitement when it comes to travelling. Meeting new people. Leaving your boring persona behind and starting off with a clean slate. You can be anyone and anything. Im going to tell you how you can take your sex life from zero to hero when traveling anywhere!
1. CONFIDENCE
This is absolute key. No one knows who you are, what you do, or even where you came from. Having confidence when asking those Australian girls sitting writing in there journals to come play a game of pool with you in the bar or to join you and your friends for a day at the beach is key! Remember most people you interact with are intimidated and have a tourist brain. They have no idea what adventures are around them but at the same time they are eager to try anything that sounds fun! Or at least better the visiting a food market.
2. CONVERSATION
You both come from opposite sides of the world. Brought up in different cultures. Who you are and what you have experienced in your life is a book you can write this very moment. Remember, people like to talk about them selves so allow your partner to tell you all about her, what she’s does, why she is travelling and even get deep into some spiritual sense. She/He will truly like you for this.
Important tip, when you are with a group of friends and there are a few good looking woman/men. Dont be the first to chat with him/her. Allow everyone else to have there chance and then come in last. Leave that lasting impression on their mind. You wont regret this. Play it cool, don’t be to clingy or obsessed.
3. THE PLATTER
If you are traveling in a high end tourist destinations like Bali or Thailand. The nationalities around you will range from British to American, Serbian to Russian, South African to Australian. And many more. With all this choice comes greater chance you will find your type! Feeling not so confident try make birdi eyes with a local woman/man.
I found being 20 around a majority of 30 year old travellers was my key to success, you need to find yours! Is it wealth? Your beautiful blonde hair? Probably your accent!
Point is nearly every tourist or local you lay your eyes on is on holiday and looking for a good time! You are surrounded by more eligible dates here then ever before in your life.
4. PROBABILITY
This is the most important key to success. Probability is a measure quantifying the likelihood that events will occur. Probability is a number between 0 and 1, where, roughly speaking, 0 indicates impossibility and 1 indicates certainty. The higher the probability of an event, the more likely it is that the event will occur.
Now to get a great rate of probability you need to flirt with as many people as you can, ask for number, buy people drinks, get out there.
If you only end up actually flirting with 3 people during your whole stay! Your probability is very low and ill tell you now you got NO action. But end up flirting with over 50 people or more during your stay, I’d say about 20 would of been interested in you. 10 would of flirted back and 5 people would of slept with you!
This is how the sex game works! And due to the tasty platter im sure all 50 would of been gorgeous!
5. SEX
This is what its all about. The moment you have been waiting for for years. Your about to turn that dry goose into a swimming dolphin.
When you got your date, your madly flirting. Do not be friend zoned. Make it clear in a classy way you want to sleep with them. Kiss her on the hand while talking. Touch his butt when he takes a pool shot. Do whatever subtle gesture you can think of to make it clear in their subconscious you are not here to play games, you want the trophy. Without freaking them out of course.
Night will grow dark and your moment for coffee at theirs with come. Remember to condomize! STD’s are real and in great numbers over seas.
If you followed my simple steps im proud of you and hope you had one crazy night! I sure know I did many times. P.s. Americans are great.
There can be many answers to this. A few could be:
– Laziness
– Financial stress
– Responsibilities
– Fear
LAZINESS
When it gets to planning a holiday the time to put in may seem daunting. And a task for a first time to be something of great difficulty. But relax, take it step by step. Do some research, where do you wanna travel? What do you want to see? Any particular cultures you want to experience.
Now start to get excited, and do as much research as possible. From Visas to Bar locations and more. You can never know too much.
Another great tip is to chat with people who have visited these places before or even inspiration from others and where they travelled. Story time is the best time. Don’t stop blabbering your mouth.
(-Tattoo outside restaurant)
FINANCIAL STRESS
This is a killer and can truly bring a downer to a great Sunday afternoon. Do I earn enough to travel? Have I saved enough to travel? The answer is yours to give. But bear in mind. Travel does not always need to be expensive, for accommodation you can use couch surfing or many other websites to find free places to stay.
For the issue towards expensive flights, there are always ways to get flights for half price or travel by bus if its close enough. Just search and remember, its all about timing. Read my other blog for more on cheap flights.
You can always work online, teach English over the internet from wherever you are. Its not easy money but It works. Work while you travel. Do odd jobs where ever you are. Paint for people, offer to sing for a bar. Write poems and sell them. Work at schools as a TEFL teacher.
You won’t become a millionaire but you will be able to buy that next bus ticket and eat for another week. It is possible. I did it for a year and others I know have been doing it for over 20 years.
RESPONSIBILITY
This one can be a wall that stops you in your tracks. And a trap many fall into during there life. People get into financial debt, take bonds out on homes. Rescue 7 dogs and cannot travel due to these cute monsters at home. It happens, to everyone.
At this point you need to decide how long you want to travel for. A week, a month or 2 years. Depending on this you need to rid what responsibility you can. For a week, get Aunty Gigs to look after your pets and home. Leaving for a month? Different story. Aunty Gigs may not be so keen but you can hire a professional house sitter!
My point is there is always a way, depending on your length of time, the longer travel time, the more responsibilities you will have to rid of or sort out. But it is possible. Chin up buttercup.
FEAR
Fear of all above reasons cause you to never travel, fear of organizing and renewing your passport. Fear of Visas and the lengthy process. Fear of having to leave your job or start basing your career online. These are the realities of traveling. And these are the most exciting parts. The movable clockwork in your watch. The coders for facebook. This is where it all begins.
So get out of your dirty bed. Walk out that front door of work. Speak with Aunty Gigs and get your travel on! It all starts with you.
It was during this strange transition in my life where I was uncomfortable with my life choices and wanted more from life. At the time I was staying in Phuket town, Thailand at the Patra Mansion Hotel/Apartments. Life was great, room service everyday, a giant pool downstairs and people with similar interests everywhere you look.
At this point in my life I wanted to go visit Japan and since my visa run was coming up this was the perfect time to visit or move to Japan. Upon my visa run, this time I was traveling alone without my mate NIC. Cant really remember why. but he was going to join me a week later in Malaysia.
– Lady sniffing glue outside the hostel.
First Day there life was great, decided to stay two weeks to relax and Hangout with some of my Party friends that side as that’s all visa runs really were, one crazy party.
1 night I met this guy, Lets call him Peter for his sake. English guy with enough money to travel the world and still have some. Well at least that’s what I thought. Later that evening at about 2am all the bars had closed we suggested to go home. Once On the scooter taxi on the way home he decide to take a video of us as any good tourist does in the center of dodgy town at 2am. Seconds go by and I hear him stopping the scooter and screaming “They Took It!” Over and over again. He then proceeded to kick the steel garage door we were parked next to threatening the driver to get his phone back. As he assumed the driver was in on it. Which in fact he was.
(- One drunken night with a good friend.)
We decided to walk home as it was just down the block. On the way home we passed one last bar. As one does after the night we had. Idiots we were. Sat there for about 5 min and a Malaysian biker gang of 6 Skinny men on Scooter stopped by demanding we leave with them. I told Peter this is not a situation he will be able to handle alone and so the security at the bar chases them away giving us time to bolt down the street and disappear in our hotel.
On the way to “Tipsy Tiger” Only the best hostel in George Town. We began to give it some speed. At we reached the back entrance to the hotel. We both heard the noise of a scooter getting closer and closer. And there he was, our original driver/gang member. Trying to force Peter onto the bike with force.
At this very moment i realized this oak Peter comes from Europe, cant defend himself. And lacks in mean muscle. Now I’m no gym bunny but I do come from Johannesburg in South Africa.
I wack this driver/gang member over the head with a closed beer can. I then shoved Peter into the hostel but the driver came back for another chance, somehow cutting my arm open I was done. Time for rage! I started bashing this man over the head time and time again repeating how easily I can kill him in a Demonic voice feeling more and more powerful with every hit.
Once my possession of some sort was over when locked the door of the hostel. To my surprise the owner had called protection of 10 Bikers and when I went out side to see if they caught the Gang member. He was being pulled off the roof as he was trying to break in to get us.
(-Photo I took as they handcuffed the gang Member.)
Basically I spent the night at the station giving my side of the story and expressing it was in self defense. Heavily intoxicated too.
Drove back the next day in a taxi with no chairs and requested to leave the island by the Police. I spent the next two weeks hiding myself in a hotel room with the presence of a gang member, sitting outside just as a reminder that if I step foot outside they will get me.
Mayalsia, all fun and games until someone gets there phone stolen.
A visa run is a short trip over an international border designed to reset the visa in the originating country of the trip.
Many countries which have visa-free travel or grant visas on arrival have a set amount of time that you can be in the country. A classic example is Thailand who allows passport holders of many countries a 30-day stay in Thailand without a visasometimes for curtain passport holders like myself can extend to 90 days. If you fly out of the country and get an exit stamp in your passport, you can reenter the country to reset the clock and get another 30-days. Almost immediately.
In 2017 I was staying in Phuket for several months and I did a visa run to Malaysia, George Town. I found a ticket on a bus 12 hour journey to Malaysia, e would stay for 1 night in a hotel booked by the visa run company and in the morning drive back to Thailand for a small fee of R2500. Upon entry I received a 90 day Visa.
There are rules you need to research before you try doing a visa run because not all border crossings are the same. In the past, Thailand has given different length visas based on how you entered the country (land vs air). You could have flown into Thailand, but if you left over a land border and crossed back, you might have only gotten 14-days on your return. Make sure you do research on the current rules before you do a visa run.
Many countries do not allow for visa runs at all. If you enter the United States as a visitor, going to Canada, Mexico, or the Caribbean does NOT reset your visa. This is done specifically to prevent people from doing visa runs. If they allowed visa runs, someone in Detroit or San Diego could stay in the country indefinitely by just doing short hops over the border. Even if you were to fly to Europe and back, if it seems obvious you are just trying to reset your visa, you might be denied entry. America’s Greatest National Parks
Other places like the Schengen Zone in Europe, have a total amount of time you can be in the zone over a set period. In the case of the Schengen Zone, you can 90-days out of any six month period. Going back and forth over borders doesn’t reset anything. It just pauses the clock on your 90-days. If you used up your 90-days, you’d have to leave the Schengen Zone for 90-days before you could come back.
3 Quick Tips for Visa Runs
Before you try and do a visa run, do the following:
Check the rules for the country who’s visa you are trying to reset.
Do research on other travelers who have done similar visa runs recently.
Research on what the cheapest method of doing a visa run. There might be cheap flights available, or it might mean getting on a bus.
Investigate to see if you can renew your visa inside the country. This might end up being the easiest solution of all, which would negate the need for even doing a visa run.
'LET US ESCAPE' 